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Sunday, December 05, 2004

 

TODAY IS OFFICIALLY WEB DAY.

Today, we're going to have a bunch of lovely pictures of Web in our Xanga. Except I don't know why I'm saying "our". Cause it's mine. I don't know.

This is Web...um...well, fucking a donkey in the ass. And his friend person...who is um...well...Look at the picture. >.<

 

Web with paint on his nose. LOVELY!

Web (right) with his..friend..sleeping on him? Yes, indeed. (Aww, how cute.)

Webby with headphones!

 

And this, I believe, concludes our WEB DAY! Tune in next week for..uh..I don't know. I forget? The world is stupid? Emo, Molly. Emo.

 


Lmfao. This is the funniest thing that has happened yet today (it's roughly noon.) I'm "Rhiannon" in this conversation (green)--you can find some really really weird people in chats. The other guy is "welcome" (red). Boredom makes me act kind of strangely. "Still having some trouble with gender identification?"

welcome> hallo hai

Rhiannon> Hi.

welcome> wr r u from?

Rhiannon> Um.

Rhiannon> Your mom?

welcome> wt?

welcome> ru male/

welcome> ?

Rhiannon> Um.

Rhiannon> No?

Rhiannon> Are you male?

welcome> yes

Rhiannon> Okay.

welcome> female/

Rhiannon> That's lovely.

Rhiannon> Wait.

Rhiannon> Oh, so you're both?

welcome> no i am male

Rhiannon> Oh.

welcome> ru female?

Rhiannon> So you're female?

Rhiannon> What?

welcome> no ia mmale/

Rhiannon> You're not a male?

welcome> male 21

Rhiannon> Ooooh are you from India?

welcome> why?

welcome> yes

Rhiannon> I KNEW IT.

welcome> ur not a female???????

Rhiannon> I dunno.

Rhiannon> Am I?

Rhiannon> Am I not female?

Rhiannon> Or am I not male?

welcome> male?

welcome> hallo

welcome> who r u?

Rhiannon> Who am I?

welcome> yes tell me

Rhiannon> I’m me.

Rhiannon> Who are you?

welcome> male

Rhiannon> Okay.

welcome> ur a male

>> welcome has left room

 


Saturday, December 04, 2004

All the people at this party
They've got a lot of style
They've got stamps of many countries
They've got passport smiles
Some are friendly
Some are cutting
Some are watching it from the wings
Some are standing in the center
Giving to get something

Photo beauty gets attention
Then her eye paint's running down
She's got a rose in her teeth
And a lampshade crown
One minute she's so happy
Then she's crying on someone's knee
Saying, “Laughing and crying—
You know it's the same release.”

I told you when I met you
I was crazy
Cry for us all beauty
Cry for Eddie in the corner thinking he's nobody
And Jack behind his joker
And stone-cold Grace behind her fan
And me in my frightened silence
Thinking I don't understand

I feel like I'm sleeping
Can you wake me?
You seem to have a broader sensibility
I'm just living on nerves and feelings
With a weak and a lazy mind
And coming to peoples parties
Fumbling deaf dumb and blind

I wish I had more sense of humor
Keeping the sadness at bay
Throwing the lightness on these things
Laughing it all away
Laughing it all away
Laughing it all away

 

--Joni Mitchell, "People's Parties"

Read the lyrics. Do it. Do it.


Wednesday, November 10, 2004

 

 

The War of 1812

 

            Today, during a brief “meeting of the minds” (led by Mr. President James Madison), I was presented with two very distinct points of view. As most Americans are well aware, the United States may be on the brink of war—and judging from the arguments neither side is willing to compromise. After an hour of debating, a clear solution did not materialize, which leaves the spectator unsure about the unity of his country. And, indeed, on this issue, the North and South seem most undoubtedly torn in two.

           

First, I would like to address those in support of the war. The most controversial topic seems to be impressments of American sailors by the British—a heinous and unjust act, according to President Madison. “Violation of America’s right as neutral” was a phrase brought up quite often, and who could disagree? Our liberty is at stake—we, this fledgling country—and should it be proven that we are not strong enough to support our own sovereignty, it will confirm to the rest of the world that we are worthy of invasion. This thought was first mentioned by William Henry Harrison, who later brought up allegations against Britain. “While Britain may be our partner in commerce,” he said, “what kind of partner shows blatant disrespect to its colleague’s rights and liberty?” It was repeated that pride and honor are the very reasons a goes to war—and a total disregard for those sacred entities, especially in our situation, is reason enough to fight the British once more. While the “doves” argued that we would lose a valuable trading partner in war, it was made obvious by “war-hawks” that they did not view Britain as useful in the slightest. With crime after crime committed against our sovereignty, the harms outweigh the benefits, and Britain must be stopped. By allowing this mistreatment to continue, we are merely inviting other countries to do the same. With Britain being preoccupied with France, it is obvious that it would be most advantageous to act now, before America is opened up for more tribulations with other European powers.

            The impressments and crimes committed at sea are not the only reasons to go to war with Britain. In a malicious attempt to again stomp on our national independence, the British have sided with the Indians. Yes—it is true—as horrifying and immoral as it sounds. They are paying the Indians for American scalps, encouraging attacks, and bribing the Indians with offers that we could not provide. However, as brought up again by William Henry Harrison, if we were to take Canada, we’d be rid of the British and be able to control the Indians—because of course, with the British gone, the Indians would hardly a threat. Also, the general sentiment is that it would be best if we civilized the savages, and thus we are killing three birds with one stone (some strategy is involved in that): Britain would no longer be invading our sovereignty, the land we gained could be used for successful farming, and the Indians would become “enlightened” and cease to attack American citizens on the frontier. For Calhoun and Grundy, fertile Canadian land is incentive enough to go to war with Britain—though if one considered the situation, there is undeniably profit to gain. The problem that remains in the back of one’s mind is how much could be lost.

           

            The view of those who are opposed to the war is simple: a couple of infringed-upon liberties for the time being is not worth American blood. The problem would still remain—and while no American feels impressment is right, there are some who say that even with impressment, war is not justifiable. These views were expressed rather vehemently by the outspoken Mr. Sheffy.  After a relatively short period of peace with Britain, we are jumping back into hostilities and dispute. This is not the time to be arguing about loyalty to the British, but to examine the state of “war” and all it entails. Have its many horrors been so quickly forgotten? Not to mention that defeating Britain would be no easy task, especially because last time we had the aid of the French—who are currently attempting to fight off the British. This time, no one will come to help us. Europe is wrapped in its own affairs, and we would be fighting the most powerful navy in the world with our dismal 16 ships. Not to mention the unleashing of Napoleon onto AmericaBritain is the only thing checking his power. We would, in effect, be fighting two very powerful enemies: Britain, and the rest of Europe (represented by Bonaparte and his army). We have neither the funds nor the manpower, nor the blessing of most of Americans. Plunging into war hastily will only lead to resentment towards the government—by both the people and other countries. We would be losing our most valuable trading partner, who participates in 2/3 of our trade, thus damaging the economy dramatically. No, argue the Doves, war is not beneficial to America right now.

            The other reason for going to war is widely seen as ridiculous—the expansion of land. How greedy—how hypocritical, the doves say. First the War Hawks complain about Britain taking our land, and then they turn around and want to take over Indian territory for their own personal gain. As Americans, do we disregard other’s culture? How can the southern states expect New England to go to war for such a trivial and selfish reason? These questions were raised by Mr. German. Mr. Macon brought up Louisiana—the fact that it still remains unexplored, yet the southerners still want more land. More land would lead to extreme stress on the reach of the government’s power, said Mr. Webster. It is obvious to the people of New England that the reason of expansion is only a cover-up for the impressment of soldiers and resentment towards Britian: the real reason of this pending war.

 

           

 

Watching all this, I could not help but agree with the Southern states. Being an American, I am greatly disturbed by the atrocities the British display on the high seas, and think it is completely justified to reclaim our sovereignty, our honor, and our pride. It is necessary to appear strong to earn ourselves credibility internationally. Land expansion would also be beneficial to America, giving its farmers more land and thus improving the economy. I believe that bloodshed is necessary to maintain freedom and sovereignty. If we were to go to war—which, my dear reader, is not too far from speculation—my heart would be completely dedicated to America’s cause.

           

At the meeting today, it was clear that America is divided in two: one half supports war with Britain, the other is adamantly against it. Nevertheless, Americans and their government delegates must realize that in order to become a successful country, opposing sides must join together once a course has been set. If the two different viewpoints remain separate if and when the war starts, it can only lead to the beginning of the demise of America and all we were fighting for in the first place.

 

 

 

Okay. I spent way too much time on this gay essay to NOT post it.

 

Happy reading. *Draw arrow extending from this statement, to above the title.*

 

Love,

Kelly


Tuesday, October 19, 2004

*Sometimes, sometimes I see beyond the scenery. Sometimes I slip inside the imagery, and I see much more than's good for me.*

Stars waiting to burn out
Stars waiting to burn out
This was inevitable.

In other news today...

I have realized I really don't care about anything anymore. I hate school. I've come to actually hate it. I've never hated it before. Maybe it's the combination of my 6th hour room smelling like Clorox, or the distinct separation between student and teacher, or the fact I feel like "moles" in Chemistry aren't worth my time. I want to crawl up in a little hole somewhere and never have to do anything ever again.

The longer I stay in school, the more I find my study skills decreasing. I play the "fifteen minute" game with myself, saying I'll do my homework in 15 minutes, but then it turns into half an hour, then an hour, until it's late and I haven't gotten anything done and I want to cry.

I'm also going through major Wicca withdrawal. Not even Wicca, I hate Wicca. I mean, what the hell. You can't get anymore fluffy than that. I need to go into Ceremonial Magic or Necromancy or High Magic or Catholic Mysticism or something. Except not the last one. Take a page out of Aleister Crowley's book. And yes, he was attractive when he was younger. Before he got really weird. And the thing that bothers me most is that the majority of the people who read this (or don't, for that matter) have no idea who Crowley is, even though he heavily influenced the modern pagan movement, not that anyone knows about that, either. And I'm pissed off because I never talk to Sarah anymore, and I'm going to jump off a cliff if I don't get to IoA so Storm can teach me about natural Witchcraft and what herbs will cure a headache. The one thing I like is that none of my friends are supprised when I begin to talk to them about the magical properties of the stone they happen to be wearing (why wear a stone if you don't use it? Come on!). Like Colleen. Her stone was grounding. I think it was Apache Tears or something like that. Listen, Colleen. Put the damn stone on your forehead and meditate. Don't just wear it around your neck.

Like tomorrow, I convinced my mother to take me to Royal Oak with my brother for his saxaphone lesson. I also need to work on the website, which would EASILY be found at http://groups.msn.com/OaklandYoungWiccansStudyCircle . Sarah and I did it..double-handedly. And she hasn't emailed me back yet. I hate the world. Why can't I just stay with Storm all day and learn about stuff? Like the stuff I care about. Like how best to store your crystals. Even if she makes me wash the front of the store in payment for lessons. I don't need to know Algebra, okay?! ALGEBRA WILL NOT HELP ME COMMUNICATE WITH HECATE. (Pronounced ehk-ah-tay, not heck-ate.) And since this seems to be my weird Paganistic xanga entry, I will continue by saying I am quite pleased with the book I recently bought by Jennifer Reif. I'm grateful that it strays slightly from Wicca, and doesn't go over EVERYTHING I ALREADY KNOW over and over and over and over like all the other books do.

See, my philosophy is that there's only so much you can get from Wicca before you begin branching out. All the books they say "appeal to both beginners and pros" are really just how-to books for people who have ZERO experience with the topic whatsoever. So then you have to start choosing subjects for yourself. Like...say I want to learn about Astral Travel or Herbs or something, I can't find that in a Wicca book. I have to find specialized books/websites etc, because otherwise, if you type in "Wicca" to the search engine, you'll get the same information. Like...how to cast a circle. And how to purify elements. And how to call directions. And the Wiccan Rede. And crap like that. Like, okay, I learned that in my first week. I hate you all, Wiccan writers. Go write a good book, like JENNIFER REIF, who knows what she's talking about. Or even write a decent book, like PHYILLIS CURROTT. And If I was cooler, I would be able to spell that. And don't add in Kaballah in a book called "THE ESSENTIALS OF WICCA" because I don't WANT Kaballah, I want Wicca, I am not Madonna or Lindsay Lohan okayokayokayokay?!?! 

I hate school.

 

Bye.



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